Thursday, April 15, 2010

Needle on E

Feels like I am alone again
Surrounded though I be
Most see only what they want
Or maybe what they need

Still I drive on, half asleep
No one looks to see
The tank is long since empty
The needle is on E

Tired, the so called "hero"
Longing to be free
After all those I have "saved"
Who's here to rescue me?

Curse myself a foolish man
Broken though I be
Drive until the last drop's gone
The needle stuck on E

OK this is self-absorbed and selfish; that's fine.  It's how I feel today.  I am sure I am not the first nor the last to feel it.  I am at my wits end with myself and with those around me.  I have lost so much of myself trying to do what I thought was right and honorable that I don't know who I am anymore.  I will survive.  I am a good man.  I have in me the devine spark of God.  I know it is here somewhere, I just need to find it again.  I need to see it so I can remind myself it is really true.