On This Night

On this night
I began to see
Who I really am
At this time
I realized
My part in the grand plan

In this moment
I can choose to define
Right now
I have redrawn
The line forever

Here before you
Stands a better man
Where once stood still
Walks a brighter light
Less afraid

From now
Until forever
I hold the key
Make the choice
Set me free

On this night
As I realize
All of this
I know
I miss you still

I AM

Word commands; universe acts

Stars are born

Spoken actions, reality become

Chosen, what you've done

God's children

Divinely delivered

Infinitely empowered

Everything growing to wisdom

Unconditional, eternal passion

Starward vision

Linked together

Endless bound

Acceleration purposefully driven

Charging, victory assured

Enlighten, embolden

Educate, shining path

Word commands; universe expands

I AM

Needle on E

Feels like I am alone again
Surrounded though I be
Most see only what they want
Or maybe what they need

Still I drive on, half asleep
No one looks to see
The tank is long since empty
The needle is on E

Tired, the so called "hero"
Longing to be free
After all those I have "saved"
Who's here to rescue me?

Curse myself a foolish man
Broken though I be
Drive until the last drop's gone
The needle stuck on E


OK this is self-absorbed and selfish; that's fine.  It's how I feel today.  I am sure I am not the first nor the last to feel it.  I am at my wits end with myself and with those around me.  I have lost so much of myself trying to do what I thought was right and honorable that I don't know who I am anymore.  I will survive.  I am a good man.  I have in me the devine spark of God.  I know it is here somewhere, I just need to find it again.  I need to see it so I can remind myself it is really true.

Mirage

I thought I saw you today,
My heart was glad,
As I, near breathless, approached
The image shifted and you were gone once again.
Still in my heart I was glad.
I knew, beyond reason, you were well
And had thought of me too.




Have you ever missed someone so bad that you saw them everywhere?

The Longing

As Summer's breeze
Cools into Fall
Like leaves from trees
Before me sprawled

And in my eyes
A tapestry
Both truth and lies
Wove maserfully



In each of these
You still reside
A presence felt
Still at my side

Where 'er you go
My heart goes too
Though distant paths
From those we knew

Throughout my years
Love, lovers and friends
Too well I know
This longing never ends



You get it.  I know you do.  Still...

Saying Goodbye; Saying Hello

Saying goodbye
It is tough when some things pass
As tear drops leave my eyes
And steal my will to laugh

I know that things work out
They always find a way
Choking back my doubt
Embrace the coming day

Saying hello
Rejoice in something new
Bask in dawn’s warm glow
This dear love is true

A new day has begun
And still within my heart
Though new songs must be sung
You have colored every part

 
A New Decade, never forgetting those things and people who have passed from us.  Remembering the joy we felt and even those things that did not go as planned; we survive and triumph.  I thank God for all that has touched me and made me who I am.

Christmas From the Heart

Christmas celebrated around the world. No matter what faith you practice nor what you believe, the season cannot be ignored. For some Christmas is the celebration of the winter solstice, for others a reason to exchange gifts and to merry make. I would like to share my take on this special time.


Christmas signals the birth of hope and forgiveness.

Christmas reminds me that chasing the stars is not only a worthy pursuit but leads to our very salvation.

Christmas is a time where promises are fulfilled and mankind is given another chance.

Christmas serves to remind us that the birth of a child is reason for all men and women to rejoice.

Christmas reminds me that despite what I may fail to do or say I can always choose to redeem myself though humility and contrition.

Christmas says that I am not a slave to my sin but a free man by the grace of God.

Christmas is a time for us to remind all people that they are loved.

This is Christmas for me. I share it with you now, from my heart to yours. May this greeting increase your joy, remind you of your freedom and how great it is to be alive.

To all of you my friends of every creed and faith I wish you Merry Christmas, Feliz Navidad, Kala Christougena, Buon Natale, and Maligayang Pasco!

Shine 'um if you got 'um!

I drove last night
Familiar ways
But darkened streets
Did meet my gaze

The rich and proud
Their lights were out
The heralds of Christmas
Nowhere were found

Till' common homes I chanced to seek
The dwelling places poor and meek
The lights were there!
Still shinning bright

Destroyed the dark
They split the night
They do not fear
The cost of light

So let them flare
As proof to all
There are riches still
For one and all

Know they its proof
We won the fight
Shine 'um if you got 'um!
Don't hide your light


This is dedicated to the Balian Mansion and the homes in Hastings Ranch. TURN IT ON ! ! !

Happiness

Happiness is a living thing
If you want it to grow
You have to believe in it
Feed it, and give it time in the sun
Realize your good fortune
Confess it daily and wear it in public
Your happiness will multiply

Blurred Realities

She walked into my life
And reality blurred
When my vision cleared
I beheld the most exquisite creature
God had ever created in her image
From that moment, I knew
I would never love another

She opened her mouth
And music stirred
When my ears could hear
A voice, just like a star
Choirs of angels stopped and listened too
Since that time, no sound
Could ever stir my heart

She said “I do not want you”
All my worst fears confirmed
When my pain eased
I held no grudge but had to leave
My strength failed
Should I have stayed, my desire
Would surely have driven her away

She touched my soul
Again reality blurred
When I awoke from that dream
I knew that I was better because of her
My soul longs to see, to hear, to be near
Still I know she is safe, secure and loved
I am at peace even in my solitude